i've got loads of stuff to get. 1.glasses 2.sunglasses 3.fossil watch 4. flat pumps 5.perfume 6.lingerie 7.mobile phone and more that i couldn't think of right now. cash is wot i need. i've still got my red packet money left but i cant use em all yet. school's pretty boring and my 2nd common test is coming right up. the damn weather is killing me it's goddammit hot! and quitting smoking had came across my mind. should i or should i not? life's really boring wot else could i do? club?shop?school work? it's the same routine every same ol' day. i want sth exciting,something that thrills me and gets my andrealine pumping. but where the heck could i find this excitement which is so difficult to look for? i see all the loving couples walking on the streets hand in hand and they did envy me. seriously speaking,i've been single for fuckit long. 2 years plus?oh yes you couldn't believe it! i dont know why it's so difficult to find jus someone you like. someone who will always be there for you when you needed him. talk to him when you needed him,lean on him when you needed him. and that dammn guy hasn't appear before me yet. YES IT HASN'T. maybe that's why life is getting pretty boring and dull. single life is good,yes,but not for long. sometimes you would feel lonely. maybe that's wot im feeling thru right now. i wana return back to the old times when we jus message each other mushy smses and lovely good night messages thou it might seemed childish sometimes. when you're feeling tired sitting in the train thru the long journey and there's a shoulder beside for you to lean on. when you're cold in the cinema and he's jus there to hug you or lend you his jacket. when the dammn chicken chop is so damn hard and he would offer to cut it for you. when he stays so far away but is willing to come all the way to your hse jus to see you. when you're crossing the road and he jus hold your hand suddenly and walk across with you thou all the cars had stopped and it's not even one bit dangerous to cross yourself. all this things,are making me reminisce the past. but the past,which would not last. oh well this is life i guess. life,life,life.

i haven came here for a long shit time. many things happened,it happened so fast. sometimes i really ask myself wot do i want actually? but i couldnt find the answer to it. life is really unpredictable and i really wont know wot's gon happen next. all the cigs and alcohol,all the clubbing shit,all the school work,all my friends,every single thing in my life. i wish upon all this to be. but im quite satisfied with wot i have now,and i dont want anything to change. all i want is that special heart. shits out- *i miss you xinny boo.i really do. ): i wana share all the fun with you too.

cny visiting.it's the same every year. but i still do look forward to every visit cos that means more red packets. so after my grandma's hse i wenta my godma's hse. wenta chill with my bro god sis and her friend ltr on at coffee club. it was quite good thou. headed home after that and met my darlings ltr on at zouk. the queue was hell long. but it was all worth it. we all took fotos like nobody's business hell yeahhhhhhhh. xinny please send me all the pretty fotos soonsoon. slept at like 5plus 6 and my bro woke me up at 10 this morning for brunch. im so frigging tired. my dark rings are showing,i'm looking damn ugly now i seriously hate it. so black tmr night?yes i cant wait! HAPPY CNY TO EVERYONE! chaochao.

zouk sucks to the fucking hell on friday night. the music was bad,everything was bad. i miss black and i swore not to go back to zouk on friday nights. the dance floor was packed like shit,i hate it. the worse is yet to come. MY FUCKING PHONE GOT STOLEN! AND WHOEVER WAS THE ONE WHO STOLE IT,I HOPE YOU BURN IN HELL LIKE A FUCKING MILLION TIMES YOU FUCKING MOTHER FUCKER. and i hope that in your next 10 generations,all your people grow their butts on their faces instead. SCREW YOU ASSHOLE. i fucking got drunk and puked and puked and puked. everything is happening at the wrong time! someone pls help me? and i called singtel they said that i need 1 working day to activate my sim card. so i only can use my sim card on monday?F.U.C.K. all the photos are gone,the messages are gone,the notes are gone. everything which is so goddamn important inside are now gone.FUCK IT again. so i think that today and sunday would be a living hell to me. actually,it has already been a living hell to me ever since ytd night. so and again,F-U-C-K = FUCK.

photobitchwhore yes i hafta admit. so here are my birthday fotos. ooohlalalala

my birthday falls in the midst of my test wk. tell me how goddammit sucky can it get. but well i did enjoy my birthday as i said it was the best 18 years of my life. 2 more papers to go and i really aint got no mood to study. im getting sick of school,im getting sick of everything. i really needa wake up and ponder thru wot i wana do in life. my paper wasnt that bad today i jus hope that i dont flop it. -you are sucha sweet thing and yes i feel it deep down in my heart.i dont wana you to leave so soon,cos there are loads of things i wana tell you,i wana share with you.all the things you did,maybe you dont mean a thing,but i took it seriously.if i aint made for you,why does my heart tell me that i am?