i've got loads of stuff to get. 1.glasses 2.sunglasses 3.fossil watch 4. flat pumps 5.perfume 6.lingerie 7.mobile phone and more that i couldn't think of right now. cash is wot i need. i've still got my red packet money left but i cant use em all yet. school's pretty boring and my 2nd common test is coming right up. the damn weather is killing me it's goddammit hot! and quitting smoking had came across my mind. should i or should i not? life's really boring wot else could i do? club?shop?school work? it's the same routine every same ol' day. i want sth exciting,something that thrills me and gets my andrealine pumping. but where the heck could i find this excitement which is so difficult to look for? i see all the loving couples walking on the streets hand in hand and they did envy me. seriously speaking,i've been single for fuckit long. 2 years plus?oh yes you couldn't believe it! i dont know why it's so difficult to find jus someone you like. someone who will always be there for you when you needed him. talk to him when you needed him,lean on him when you needed him. and that dammn guy hasn't appear before me yet. YES IT HASN'T. maybe that's why life is getting pretty boring and dull. single life is good,yes,but not for long. sometimes you would feel lonely. maybe that's wot im feeling thru right now. i wana return back to the old times when we jus message each other mushy smses and lovely good night messages thou it might seemed childish sometimes. when you're feeling tired sitting in the train thru the long journey and there's a shoulder beside for you to lean on. when you're cold in the cinema and he's jus there to hug you or lend you his jacket. when the dammn chicken chop is so damn hard and he would offer to cut it for you. when he stays so far away but is willing to come all the way to your hse jus to see you. when you're crossing the road and he jus hold your hand suddenly and walk across with you thou all the cars had stopped and it's not even one bit dangerous to cross yourself. all this things,are making me reminisce the past. but the past,which would not last. oh well this is life i guess. life,life,life.