im feeling fucked up. im feeling sad. im feeling down. im feeling horrible. im feeling lousy. im feeling so bad ive never felt like this before. i wana cry. i wana cry out loud. but i cant seem to do so. i wana tear. i wana tear so badly. i need a shoulder to lean on. someone please lend me. someone please help me. someone please slap me. nobody cares. no one jus no one.